It’s been a while since I brought myself to write here, on the space I created. I began my journey and not shortly after – I was led into a hermit mode of sorts, to go within, work on my self healing.
The energy surrounding us as a collective has been heavy as of late – and I know I am not the only one who has been feeling it.
At first, my ego – my human self, my mind – fought my inner souls need to retreat and work on myself. It had lots to say, that mind of mine: ‘you literally just started and now you are giving up?’ ‘You worked so hard and just left it there?’ ‘Are you ever going to get back into it?’ ‘What are you waiting for?’ ‘You aren’t accomplishing anything!’ – I could go on.
But my heart played a different tune, and my guides continually reassured me that taking the time I need to rest, heal and recharge is so important. That I would get back to my plans soon enough, that all falls into divine timing – and I am – right on time.
Still, it was (and is) difficult for my human mind to trust in divine timing. I can feel my heart knows the way but my brain panics at the thought of not knowing where I am going – not knowing what I am doing.
My soul called out to me, but I could not hear. What is it? I’d ask. But I could not make out the words. The gentle whisper of my heart is too soft – and the world – the world is just so loud.
So I retreated, into my shell. I am still there – not quite ready to start running but ready to peak out for moments of time. I am still shedding old parts of myself – and in what would seem a contradiction – I feel as though I am becoming more whole and more myself through this journey.
I was guided to write about this experience of mine, although I was hesitant, I was reminded that I am not alone on my journey. There are souls out there that will resonate with my song and will understand. There are souls that will read these words and it will be what they needed to hear.
So I have brought myself out here – and will continue to do so but not on a daily basis for now – and that is ok. I can walk, I do not have to run. I am on time.
I felt guided to share a card from the Rumi Oracle that I had pulled for myself the other day. It is such a beautiful card and it has been on my mind pretty heavily since then. It came to me in a moment when I felt as though I was walking forward in darkness, not seeing where I was going. My heart followed blindly through the night and my head did not understand. Flow with the river my heart would whisper – you’ll drown my head would say.
The Dissolving Light
I died as mineral and became plant.
I died as plant and rose to animal.
I died as animal, and I became human.
Why should I fear anything?
When was I ever less by dying?
There is a light so intense, so powerful, that nothing other than itself, it’s own truth, can exist in its presence. It is the sacred seed, the star of your being, lit up from within. It is the light that never goes out. It is the light that is so powerful it is beyond duality of light and dark, cannot ever be extinguished or diminished, and quite simply, beyond all logic, just is. . . . It is enduring power and yet it is tender. There will be times in your life – such as now – when there is something not worthy of you that must be released. This is a falsehood, a lie or deception of some sort that you have come to believe about yourself, your life or perhaps even another. You may not know what that deception is, or it may be about to be unveiled. It is not a cause for fear or concern, but for celebration. An illusion has or soon will be released, and you shall become freer, free in a way that only truth can provide.
This oracle comes to you as a sign of that which is to come, and soon. The beloved divine presence is calling to you, igniting within your deepest being, so that it may have it’s way with you! The divine wishes to live through you and into the world, reaching into the hearts of many and igniting those hearts into greater life. And so the great lover – the Divine – calls for you to enter into the white hot field of its passionate presence. There will be sizzle and burn. It cannot be otherwise.
In the height of summer you cast aside the layers of clothing you require in the winter. This is natural. you do not think twice about it. As you approach the radiant sun of divinity, your emotional and psychological layers are to be shed too, for they are too heavy for the heat of the great spiritual sun. What cannot stand the heavenly heat is to be cast aside swiftly by conscious choice, or shall simply burn up, dissolving in the light and melting away. What is left shall be what is true.
So here is your guidance, sweet lover of the Great Beloved. Give it up – the smalless, the conditions, the fears, the doubts, the lack of reverence for yourself and life, the belief that somehow things are not okay or aren’t going to work out. That is all a paltry attempt at truth! You are coming into a truth now that is far more worthy of you – a truth with a capital ‘T’, the big Truth. Love. Trust. Surrender.
This is about a sacred shedding without fear or holding back. Cast aside whatever would hold you back rather than free you to fly into your divine destiny. You are not to be the same from this moment on! That is the holy word, the word inscribed in living divine fire in your sacred heart.
This oracle brings you guidance. Trust in your changing perspective and perceptions. Don’t hold onto what you once believed or thought to be true. Allow yourself to be shown another version of events, another way of perceiving. Don’t focus on what is not working in your current estimation of things, for that is nothing more than a passing opinion. you are being given the opportunity to see and know yourself, others and particular life circumstances very differently. Embrace it. Don’t resist what is being shown to you, for even if there are some struggles in adjusting your view at first, ultimately this change in perception will free you and bring you more deeply into the wellspring of your own inner peace and happiness.
I hope you embrace it and do not fear the depths – I will do the same, love & light.
Namaste
Primal & Divine 